It's dark- my thoughts

Assalamualaikum and hi, how are you guys doing? I hope everyone is well and stay safe. I have a lot of ideas on what to update on my blog but I never did, and I end up posting about my "well-being" which isn't that fun to read. I'm so sorry but I'll come back with a more exciting and maybe knowledgeable entry.

Lately, I wasn't feeling well. Too much thought, too little energy. I broke down multiple times in a week. I feel a little lonely and to be honest, it's getting dark. Since I started my internship it hits me that I'm going to be an adult, I am an adult. But I wasn't ready to be out there be part of society to be a person. I really cannot organize my thoughts and I lost.

When I was younger, my dream is to inspire people. I don't know how, but I want to look up at me and be like "damn she's such an inspiration", it's just my biggest dream. But without realizing it, the dream faded away into thin air as if it wasn't in me. A few years later, some people remind me back to those dreams, and now at 22 years old, I try to make a path for it. Apparently, I'm such a clown. How can someone who can't even manage herself try to inspire other people? Impossible. 

Recently, a lot of things have triggered my trauma. I'm not saying I have the worst childhood. I got this uneasy feeling and kept remembering things that happened past 12-6 years. I hate this feeling and I feel a lot of resentment towards the people that affected my life. I feel like if they could treat me better, I won't be such a mess now. I tried, I try to forget it but it won't go away. 

I got tired of everything that has been in my mind. When I try to open up, seeking some affection and attention, I got pushed away. "You are old enough", "You are being dramatic", "You are overreacting"  is all I got when I reach for some comfort. At this point, what should I feel? It's just like an empty room with no lights. Nothing there to help lighten up the room. Nothing. 

I am in the scariest fight. Fight between me and myself. I don't know if this is just a phase in my life or it's going to be in me forever. I know I should love myself, accept myself but it just too overwhelming. I really hope that this going to be gone soon. Thank you for spending your time reading this, I'm so sorry for such negativity. Take care everyone. 

What keeps you going?

 Assalamualaikum and hi everyone. I've been wanted to write something a few times and every time it just failed. If you saw this entry please, say congratulations to me hahaha.

"What keeps you going?' I received this question on my Instagram's story from one of my best friends. It takes me a while to answer this and to put my words together. I did answer her on my stories but I think I have a lot more to say on this topic. If you are new to my blog or just didn't keep up with my life journey, I just want to let you guys know that I'm struggling with my life and I'm on a journey in discovering  "self-love". Being sentimental, emotional, and a weird type of person. I just can't stop but thinking about this question so hard!

I am nobody, I have no great achievement, I don't know why my friend ask me that because honestly, she has more great achievement than me. But I know that she always respects me for able to keep doing what I like. This is my answer for anyone out there who may need this. 

The biggest reason for what keeps me going in whatever I did until now is that I believe wholeheartedly that every single human being in this world has their own pace, own destiny, and their own journey. Some of us may have the same destination but we may have detoured from the normal route. A lot of times, I feel very insecure when someone of my age or younger is very successful and I almost give up frequently. But, if I give up, will anything change? Will the person who I feel insecure about suddenly became unsuccessful?  We are all labeled as "humans" but little did we know, each of us is unique and capable of amazing things in our own way. Keep moving, if you are tired, take a break. 

I don't know how I'd look like at the finish line, I want to know
But for now I run on the road ahead of me, I'll decide later
Until then, I'm not looking at others
Don't forget my speed, my lane, my pace - Stray Kids, My Pace

Next, positivity. Lame. I know. It is so hard for us to look on the positive side when things didn't go our way or we are just tired of our own life. I agree. But somehow, I always force myself to believe that everything happened for reasons and I should be grateful that the problem that I have could be worst. This cannot be applied to everyone out there because our capabilities to cope with problems are different. However, I'm just going to put it out there that positivity does help us in a hard time. It will in the slightest way possible, it will help. I always think that people who are successful in their life have the light of positivity in their life. No reasons for us to stop searching for positivity.

This is another crucial point for me. Be happy with every little thing. I realize that I should be happy with every little thing when I always found myself being sad for not able to find a boyfriend. I'm 22 years old, being single my whole life and my friends are having a boyfriend, getting engaged, and getting married. It might sound funny but that's the reality, the pressure to keep up with society. When I was able to find happiness in the smallest thing, it felt good and make me want to keep living. I am doing business, but till now I did not have a lot of customers but when I promote the products and people reply to it without even buying them. I feel happy and grateful. I feel like I can keep doing this! (If you want to buy Korean skincare hit me up @thesthatix_ on IG) Shameless plug.

This is kind of personal but another reason for me to keep going is that I try to stop putting hopes in other people. I feel like, in the end, it's only me in my journey. Asking for help and having someone else alongside is better than being alone. But sometimes, the scariest and the biggest fight that needs to be done is with your own self. I don't know if this makes sense to any of you but I hope you got what I mean. For example, I wanted to get out of my comfort zone but at the same time, I was hoping that someone will guide me. If those people who are meant to help you failed to meet your expectation, you'll feel sad, clueless, and pretty much feels like everything isn't going on your way. In simpler words, expect less. 

Lastly, don't be too hard on yourself. You had already go through so much in your life. Hug yourself and pat your own shoulder and tell yourself "You have done a good job, let's keep going". 

That's all for this entry, share with me what are the reasons for you to keep going in whatever you do! See you in the next entry.

The story behind: A Silent Voice

Assalamualakum and hi everyone! This will be my first ever review on anime and instead of reviewing I would like to discuss the message of the story. So, my first "the story behind" will be about A Silent Voice (Koe no katachi). I've made a podcast on this topic but it is super awkward! My blog will discuss in detail. But if you prefer in the audio form you can check out on a few platforms such as Anchor, Spotify, Breaker, Overcast, and PocketCasts (click on the platforms name to be directed or you can type in "AwTalk" on those platforms). It's a trial episode so forgive me for the bad quality!

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Warning! Spoilers ahead!

Bully, depression, and suicide trigger!

Title: A silent voice / Koe no katachi

Genre: Drama, school, shounen, romance

Production studio: Kyoto Animation

My rate: 9.5/10

I have watched this anime for almost 4 times and every time I watched, I start to understand this story more and it gets depressing and sad!  This story starts off with the guy name Ishida Shouya, a highschool student who tries to take off his own life by jumping off the bridge. He quit his part-time job, sell off his belongings, and emptied his bank account. He proceeds to give all the money to her mother. At this point, he really determined to take his own life. Somehow, his attempt was failed as he was reminded to Nishimiya Shouko. 

Long story short, during elementary school, Nishimiya Shouko was transferred to Shouya's class and she has a hearing disability.  Shouya and his classmates bully Shouko out of the fun. When the mother notifies the school, Shouya has been blamed alone. Shouko has transferred to another school and later, Shouya has been bullied by his classmates. He has been ignored throughout his entire year in middle school and later in high school. He has no friends and he was kind of canceled everyone else in his life. He grows up with all the guilt towards his mother and also Shouko. He reunited with Shouko to amend his wrongdoings and he wants to reset his own life. 

Characters

I personally think each of the characters in this story is another reason for this anime being so amazing! The characters are so relatable in the real world and yes, these types of people exist. Let's get into sides character apart from Nishimiya Shouko and Ishida Shouya.

Nishimiya Yuzuru- Is Shouko's little sister. I believe she is the bridge between Shouko and Shouya. Despite her young age, she feels like she holds a lot of responsibilities in her family. She acts like a guardian for Shouko. She is very mature for her age. 

Ueno Naoka- Is one of Shouko's bully. She is very active in bullying Shouko but she put the blame on Shouya and then she had the audacity to call out Shouko for ruining Shouya's life. 

Nagatsuka Tomohiro- He was the first person Shouya open up to, in high school. I honestly, love Tomohiro's character and I believe everyone needs this type of friend. He is very supportive and he just doesn't judge a person based on their past.

Kawai Miki- I just can't put it in words how much I dislike this character. She was also part of Shouko's bullied. But she will always act like she is the victim and everyone should like her. But, it is not fair, she has a good looking and kind boyfriend. NOT FAIRRR! *internally screaming* 

Mashiba Satoshi- He is Kawai's boyfriend. At first, I thought his character has nothing much to do with this story but I changed my mind. He can be a really good friend and a good boyfriend that can help others to improve themselves. 

Sahara Miyoko- She is the only one who is willing to befriend with Shouko and learn sign language to communicate.

Lastly, Shimada Kazuki and Hirose Keisure. These 2 boys are Shouya's best friend during elementary school. But they are the ones who put the blame on Shouya and later bully him. 

A Silent Voice

A silent voice or should I said silent voices? Physically, Shouko is deaf and she has difficulties to convey her message to other people. Mentally, Shouya was not able to open up to people and tell them how he was feeling. Shouko was not able to listen and Shouya did not want to listen. Shouya admits that if he tries to listen, all his and Shouko's suffers will not happen. He was young, probably around 12 years old and he regretted that moment a lot. Throughout the movie, we can see Shouya was suffering from anxiety.

"Back then, if we could have heard each other's voices, everything would have been so much better" - Ishida Shouya

Shouko fell in love with Shouya. But in her point of view, it was all her mistakes. She thought she has ruined Shouya's life and she feels he cannot be happy with her. Although Shouya tries to seek redemption for his past wrongdoing, both of them are living on their own lines and they didn't really understand each other yet.

I also believe silent voice implies to their elementary school classmates too. They silent their voice for their own benefits, like putting all the blames on Shouya. They also refuse to listen to both Shouya and Shouko.

If you open the eyes and look around us, this movie somehow relatable to reality. You know how anime tend to over exaggerate things. But Koe no katachi, is written beautifully. My opinion can be a little different from yours but I can see a lot of people loving this story.

This anime is suitable for the non-anime watcher too. What do you guys think? Have you watched this anime? Share with me on comment section below! See you guys in the next entry!

The end

Assalamualaikum and hi, first of all, I want to let you guys know I just changed my blog theme or looks. Because people were having a hard time searching for my chatbox. But, don't worry! I got you! Anyway, I had a draft of an entry I want to post but somehow I didn't finish writing it. So, I'm just going to combine the last story and today's story.

17th August 2020, marks the last day of my college life. Honestly, I don't know how to feels, it's just mixing all over my head and my emotions. If you guys keep updated with my blog, you probably know that I was really sad because I can't meet my friends for the last semester. Put that aside, I still have overwhelming emotions. Practically, I haven't finished my degree yet because I have to go through an internship for 6 months before I can finally graduate. But, the internship is just like working right? it's already in the new phase of life.

Saying goodbye to one of your most favorite phase in life is just too sad. When I look back, I do enjoy my college life. I go through episodes of anxiety through those years, crying for not able to be in class, arguing with myself to be better in studies, getting heartbroken because of the results. Apart from that, there are a lot of memories I make during my college life.

The thing that I will probably miss the most is the events. I was pretty much active in extra co-curriculum activities, I joined a lot of events and handle a lot of events. I was the president of a club at my college. I won't be able to experience all of this if my college years didn't exist. However, it is a little sad because when I was still the president of the club I cannot do much because of the MCO and stuff. I have a really good team, but you know things happened.

If you didn't know, my college is quite far from my home. Sometimes it takes 12 hours to reach home. So, I rarely went home because of time and money constraints. I get the freedom that I crave, hahaha. Growing up in a strict family and I don't have much freedom, but college does give me a chance. I think this is the biggest reason I enjoy my college life. But, don't misunderstand me, I do love and enjoy my time with my family.

In my first year, I really said to myself "think as you are going to a camp but for 4 + years". But, luckily I was able to adapt fast. Time flies so fast, I'm 22 years old and getting into new phase yet still single hahaha. It's funny because I thought I'm gonna meet "someone" in college but shame on me. Well at this moment, I don't really care anymore. I'm just going to work hard and enjoy myself.

I'm just going to hug myself and pat my back, you survived your degree. Please pray for my exam results and I hope my internship will be fine. Thank you to every single person that has come to my life during those years. If we were not in the same boat anymore, you are still part of my stories. But if we are still together, I feel blessed and thank you for staying with me. Same goes to my dear readers, who still keep up with my irregular schedule on this blog and thank you for all the supporting words. I love you guys!

That's all for this entry, it's currently 2.06 a.m. I should sleep right now. Thank you and see you in the next entry!

Small business by young entrepreneurs we should support | Malaysia

Assalamualaikum and hi everyone! How are you guys doing? This entry is considered a project and if it is successful I will keep doing this to help more people! 

Since MCO started I saw a lot of my friends starting a new business to get side income for various reasons. Of course, starting a business was never easy and I feel a little bit disappointed because I can't really help by buying their product cause this is girl is broke. So, in this entry, I would like to support them by sharing their business with my dear readers. My blog is not big at all, I have small followers but I sincerely hope that whoever reads this may help these young entrepreneurs in any way possible. 

 Make sure to read until the end because a lot of amazing products are available! Don't forget to share this entry with your friends too. 

Notes: The usernames are linked to the business's social media. Click the username and it will direct you to their social media.

1. thesthatix

This might be a little bias but this business is actually owned by me. I sell authentic Korean. skincare came all the way from Korea. Products available are from various brands such as Innisfree, Laneige, Cosrx, Dr. Jart, Mediheal, and more. For more information, you can follow the Instagram @thesthatix_

2. rhinoff.iphone 

This store sells iPhone second-hand original, iPhone refurbishes, and iPhone accessories. So, if you are an iPhone user you can definitely check this store out for some good accessories and refurbishes. If you are looking for affordable second-hand iPhone hit this store up! For more details on the products, follow their Instagram @rhinoff.iphone

3. beaufavestore

For hijabista and fashionista out there! This is for you! beaufavestore offers beautiful yet affordable sneakers and hijabs. It is pretty affordable and there are a lot of sneakers design to choose and a wide range of colours for the hijabs. So, follow their Instagram (@beaufavestore) now!

4. bradersthrift

Do you know you can still be glamourous and looking good with bundle clothing? Yes, bradersthrift offers you amazing bundle clothing. Their clothes are new and the designs are all very nice! For more details on their products, check out @bradersthrift on Instagram.

5. thesweetiescarves

As it's named, the products offered by thesweetiehijabs are all sweet! They have a lot of hijabs such as Satin Matte Shawl, Cotton Eyelash Shawl, Satin Silk Eyelash Shawl, Bawal Cotton Pure, and so much more! So, follow their Instagram (@thesweetiescarves) now!

6. nimschocohq

Calling out sweet tooth and chocolate lovers! nimschocohq offers you Nims Choco Crispy. This chocolate crispy is viral!! If you haven't tasted it or you don't know where to buy it? Don't worry! contact nimschocohq on their Instagram @nimschocohq

7. Sejadah Sandar Akhbar 

This would be a perfect gift for your mum, dad, and for yourself! This Sejadah allows you to lean on it while you perform your Ibadah such as reciting al-Quran. It is so comfortable and convenient to use! Isn't it great that this product allows us to perform our Ibadah comfortably? For more information, hop on their Instagram @akhbarofficial_

8. ELLOHIJAB

Hijabista, another hijab store to keep an eye on! They offer you Shawl and Bawal satin-matte by Ellohijab. The prices are affordable and the quality of the hijabs are nice! You won't understand until you check out by yourself on their Instagram page @lovellieshijab

9. stitchesbyb

They sell embroidery products such as hoop, pouch, and pencil box. This business needs talent! The finished products are amazing too! You just need to see by yourself how good are the products because I can't explain how beautiful it is! Go to their Instagram page @stitchesbyb for more details! 

10. hhdropship

One-stop center for fashion items! This store offers you various fashion items such as shoes, cap, bags, and others! You can buy for yourself or as a gift to a boyfriend or girlfriend! So, drop by @hhdropship on Instagram and make a purchase!!

11. nishaicosmetics

Having one lipstick, honestly was never enough! Add lipstick from nishaicosmetic into your collection! This store offers you pretty, natural shades of Demica lips matte that are suitable for an everyday look! Search @nishaicosmetic on Instagram today!!

So, that is all for this entry! Make sure to check all this business and share it with your friends! If you want to join for the next promoting business session on my blog, reach me out on my email:sarahnuraisyah98@gmail.com or dm me on any social media platform!

Friendship that i won't change for anything else.

Assalamualaikum and hi! how are you guys doing? I actually have a list on what to write but somehow this one cannot wait. My heart just screaming to write on this one. So, despite having a final exam I make a time to write this. I believe this is such a beautiful story that I want to share with you guys. I am a person who values every relationship that I ever had. If it's bad, it's just gonna be a bad story but if it's beautiful, I'll keep it in my heart. 

I have a group of friends. There are five of us Sabby, Jah, Ani, Rizka, and me. I met them back in 2016 when I started my university life. To be honest, I don't really have the expectation of having really close friends. I kind of having a hard time in "friendship" back in high school. Well, of course, I have a few close friends from high school. But, staying in university, far from home I am really close to this group. I always keep my friends pool small and I prefer to talk to someone I'm comfortable with. At least that's how I feel at this moment.

Sabby and Rizka is my housemate so we are really close. I remember eating together during orientation despite being in different groups. We pretty much go everywhere together. Jah and Aini came in because we were in the same class. I cannot forget Aini's first WhatsApp. Jah, Ani, and I were in the same class for almost every subject during the foundation. We surely laugh a lot during classes. Then, all of us hang out together every single day. At first, I don't think our friendship will last long because the way I talked might make some people uncomfortable. "orang utagha cakap kasaq" I know I hurt them few times because the way I talk.

To write every memorable story will take forever but in this entry, I just want to tell why I won't change my friendship with them with anything else. If I ever lost memory, I don't want to lost memory of my days with them. We were very close to the point if someone having the problem, we will know without them telling. We kind of read each other minds. I guess.

They were with me since the beginning until now. I experience all the things I wanted to feel with them. We laugh, we cried, we fight, we stop talking all of sudden and start talking like usual the very next day, we forgive each other, we support each other. I'm not sure about them but this is how I really feel about them. They probably won't know but when I was at my lowest during that one semester, having the anxiety to go to the class. They were the biggest help I received at that moment. They were always there when I'm having the hardest time. I don't know if I ever repay them enough. 

All of them are smart students. During foundations, they are all deans list student every semester even in Degree, they did way better than I did and I was the only one who is not that good academically. I thought they are going to abandon me because "smarts mingle with smarts". I went through that during my school days. But I was wrong, they will always be there to help me. They'll come to me and said: "Sarah kalau tak faham tanya je la aku tau!" (sis getting emotional writing this). Those words mean a lot to me. They are surely one of the reasons for me to keep going. They know the best and the bad things about me. But they still accept me. With them, I can pretty much be myself. 

They did a lot of amazing things to me. They even help me search for a boyfriend but being me I'm still single. Hahaha. We can share pretty much everything together. If one of us had a crush on someone and didn't tell everyone in the group, we will interrogate until each of us get the answer. It looks like a "busy body" but no that's what we do. 

Friends are the ones who accept you at your lowest point and be happy with you at your highest point. They really had a special place in my heart. I'm making this entry because this June till September is supposed to be our last moment together in University. But, because of Covid-19, no physical classes will be conducted. We were all separated. I am in Penang, Sabby in Johor, Jah and Ani in Selangor, Rizka in KL. I don't know when we will reunite but one thing for sure, things won't be the same anymore. We will not be able to go to class together, waking up looking at each other faces, staying up in the libraries, fight over who to make decisions on where to eat. 

This blog had been a place where I wrote how I feel at the moment and to read back in the future to appreciate things. If this blog exists without our story, it won't be completed. I really hope that we can keep our friendship forever and each of us grows up individually into an amazing person. 

A little message to my genduts, I am very proud of every single of you and I'm always right over the phone to listen to your story. If there is a possible chance, I will book my ticket to Johor and KL, to be with you if you need me. I believe that you guys are one of the greatest gifts Allah ever give to me. I won't say in front of you because it so cringes, lol! but maybe this blog will help to reach the message to you. 

Thank you for reading and till we meet in another post! Oh, wish me luck for my final exams. 

Skincare 101: Things you should know before getting into skincare. | Malaysia

Assalamualaikum, Hi, Salam Sejahtera, こんにちは and 안녕하세요 everyone, I'm back with a new entry to help some of the friends or any of you who need some help in taking care of your skin, how to start doing skincare or you are already doing your skincare but you want to improve your skincare routine! 

Oh! Salam Aidilfitri everyone!

* Disclaimer!*

I am not a dermatologist, aesthetician, specialist nor beauty guru. I am only someone who is into beauty stuff including skincare. All information that I share on my entry is all based on my readings, videos on youtube, and my experiences. At the end of this entry, I will include links to youtube videos where you can learn more about skincare.

Before I start further into how to take care of your skin, I want all of you readers to give attention to what I am going to tell because it is pretty important; 

• Please! keep this in mind that not all products are suitable for everyone. If you saw a product review or a testimonial, DO NOT believe it immediately and purchase it. 
• DO NOT buy any local product that is not approved by Kementerian Kesihatan Malaysia (KKM). I do not want to be biased, but I would personally avoid using local skincare products.
• DO NOT buy any skincare products without prior knowledge about the products. This is to help you to save money and avoid your skin become worst.
• Skincare needs to be done consistently in order to achieve your desired skin.

Now, let's get into things you should know before you start doing your skincare. 

        

            1. Know your skin type and skin concern.

Understanding your skin is quite important. This is because to have an effective skincare routine you need the products that will benefit your skins. Knowing your skin type will help you in deciding what products you should buy. 

There are four types of skin, which are oily, dry, combination, and normal. There are a lot of videos on youtube that show you how to know your skin type, you can check them out, take your time to understand your skin type. My personal favorite video on how to know your skin type is by Hyram.

Next is regarding skin concern, examples of skin concern are sensitive skin, acne-prone skin, dehydrated skin, dull skin, etc. Skin concern can be known before you start doing skincare or it won't show until you actually did your skincare. For example, acne-prone skin can be seen prior to a skincare routine, it is obvious on your skin. Meanwhile, sensitive skin will happen after you apply your products. Some people may put sensitive skin in skin types but I personally believe it is skin concern. Because someone can have oily skin and sensitive skin at the same time.

My personal skin type is dry and I have sensitive skin. I need to be extra careful when choosing my skincare.

            2. Cleansing! 

(This is my current facial cleanser that I use)

This is the most basic thing to do, once you get into skincare. Please! buy a facial cleanser, do not use your body wash or any other soap. But you also need to know that, some facial cleanser does contain a harsh ingredient that can irritate your skin in a longer period. I will link a few youtube channels for you to understand how ingredients in facial cleanser work and what ingredient you should avoid. 

The most appropriate time to wash your face is 45 seconds to 1 minute. If you wash too fast, it won't remove the dirt but you wash for too long it will strip off the hydration. When you wash your face DO NOT do it roughly! Be kind to your skin. After you cleanse your skin, you should continue other skincare steps. If you stop at face wash it might not be that helpful. This is because washing your face does strip off oil on your face if you have dry skin it will feel tight and might get flaky and for oily skin, the skin will produce more oil because of lack of moisture. Therefore, basic steps if you want to start skincare are a cleanser and moisturizer. 

If you are someone who wears makeup or using sunscreen, I recommend you guys to use double cleansing approach. I will make another entry on double cleansing if you are interested! 

            3. Umm.. scrubbing?

I know a lot of people actually include scrubbing in their skincare routine or they just buy scrub because everyone is doing it. Well, the scrub is an exfoliation process, where you remove the dead skin that builds on your skin and cleanses your face deeper. Using physical scrub is not wrong but you need to know that there are few physical scrubs that can damage and irritate your skin. For example, St. Ives apricot scrubs are so harsh to the skin. 

If you want to use the scrub you need to avoid scrubs that contain large exfoliants/beads. Go with smaller beads or beads that can dissolve like a sugar scrub. Remember to handle the scrubs gently. Do not rub on your face like you scrubbing away the dirt on your shirt. 

So, I would recommend you guys to exfoliate your skin using a chemical exfoliator. Chemical exfoliator works more gently on your skin compared to physical scrub. There are a few types of chemical exfoliator that works differently on the different type of skin. To understand further about chemical exfoliators, I suggest you guys do some readings. I will make another entry on exfoliating because this topic is LONG!

These are three things you should know before getting into skincare. I know there are actually more things that we need to know. But for this entry, I think this is enough for you to work on your brain. You need to take your time and learn. Your skin can not improve overnight. I personally believe buying skincare is an investment, it can be a bad investment or it is profitable. 

Here are youtube channels that you can learn from:

Hyram, Mixed Makeup, Maisarah Mahmud (But she is inactive now), and Noel Faizal. 

So, If you have any questions drop it on the comment section below and I will try my best to answer. See you in the next entry!

 

I did wild makeup looks!

Assalamualaikum and hi! First thing first, I would like to wish Salam Aidilfitri to all my readers. I hope you all had a wonderful Ramadhan. I have been quite busy with my assignments and exam in these past weeks. So, how are you?

If you guys don't know, I was really into makeup but now I kind of slow down a little bit. Because I believe that doing makeup is expensive and I AM BROKE! However, I'm dying to do some makeup and learn new stuff with makeup. 

I guess I'm pretty good with basic makeup look but this time is different! I want to try something different! something wild! something that I never did. and if you guys don't know, I do youtube videos. Guess what? I make makeup videos on youtube. 

This is the look, if you wonder how I did it or you want a better view, click here. I did this post because I want to promote my youtube channel. So if you happen to be interested please subscribe to my channel!

Thank you for reading this short post guys! I'll be back with another entry soon. This is just a shamelessly plug-in entry. hahaha. See you guys in next entry!

The RMO story

Assalamualaikum and hi~ Harini tiba2 rasa nak update entry dalam BM sebab rasa a little friendly because this entry will be a story type of entry. So entry ni Bahasa rojak lah ye. 

So ni dah hari ke berapa dah pkp pun dah tak tau dah lost count. Cerita ni jd before pkp and berlarutan smpai sekarang.. So kisah dia begini, few days before pkp rasanya 13th March kot, Sarah balik penang sebab my mum tak sihat and will be warded on 14th March. 

A day before nak balik penang tu I got 3 quizzes dri pagi smpai malam so tak sempat nak basuh baju and kemas sangat. I thought nak balik penang kejap je la kan about 3-4 days je, so it won't be bad lah kan x basuh baju. I left everything there. Literally almost everything yg sarah ada smua dkt sana. Memang balik penang bawak satu beg je ada laptop ada file and sikit2 brg skincare. 

Dari ingat nak balik sekejap je terpaksa extend stay dkt penang sebab mak x boleh keluar ward lagi. Ttba diumumkan pkp akan berkuatkuasa. First thing first bersyukur jugak sbb boleh stay dgn family lg dkt rumah and then things start to hit. Baju aku dah bertimbun x basuh, brg makeup, skincare semua tinggal sana, my textbook. I keep it positif lg "takpe dua minggu je" hahahaha. mimpi aja kamu ni sarah.

Sekarang ni aku dah half redho sbb baju aku bertimbun x basuh. tpi paling sakit week yg sebelum aku balik aku baru beli stock makanan.. aku beli susu, roti, tuna, biskut, chocolate.. semuanya habis ya msti dah busuk ya peti ais itu. tapi nak buat mcm mna kan.. redho.

Aku balik sehelai sepinggang.. and my wardrobe isn't like normal girl banyak baju.. Baju sarah ulang2 je memang skit je kat rumah mmng x de sgt baju elok.. baju tangan pendek je lah ada. Selamat tak payah keluar memana kan. So online class pun tgk la tudung yg sama haha outfit sama je everyday. Nak jawab midterm pun separuh mati sbb textbook tinggal dkt sana. Yang btul2 balik for pkp dorg sempat la grab the books.

The great thing about all this thing is that aku dah balik awal.. bayangkan aku x balik penang sbb mak aku sakit kan msti aku stranded in my college. sebab nak balik penang jauh and confirm bahaya sbb people start panicking and balik masa pkp announcement tu kan. 

I probably won't be back to my college until Jun. Maka!! baju baju yang terperap tu aku harap tak reput or berulat lah ye. I get anxious pikir pasal baju kt sana. Baju you made me worry.. I wanna meet you so bad. hahaha . Psl skincare aku ni aku dah giveup.. mmng tak pakai smua benda.. nak beli baru duit x de. nk pakai my mum punya x sesuai sbb i kulit sensitive.

But baju ke skincare ke semua tu x penting skrg ni, we are in pendamic. It is our job to protect ourselves and people around us.. so Stay Home people! We gonna win this fight.. See you in next entry.

001.Dreaming inside the glass

Assalamualaikum and Hi~ I've always wanted to try poetry but I'm not good at it. I wrote a few in my journal but never publish it. So, this is my first "poem" that I publish on my blog. I'm sorry if this is bad. 

Dreaming inside the glass

By: SarahIsyah

I woke up inside a glass

I saw the world, yet I can't reach it

It is the glass, the glass that blocking me

I saw the world, I dream about it

A dream that gives hopes and happiness

The dream that I've always wanted, I threw it away

Why? Because it is impossible to climb out of the glass

Pretty glass catch every pair of eyes

Meets everyone expectations, so I can shine 

Screaming inside the glass, hoping to be seen

Throat hurts, heart in pain

People see and walk away

Dreams are just dreams

Break the glass, I'll bleed

Put on a smile, keep dreaming

because it's the dream that keeps me breathing

even the glass is filled by the water

I'll keep dreaming inside the glass.

That's all, I don't know what to say. Hope you enjoy it! If you like it leave a comment and if you don't leave a message for improvement. See you in the next entry and stay at home!

COVID-19- Self-improvement space.

Assalamualaikum and hi! I'm back with another entry. Since we are still in RMO/MCO/PKP, I'm willing to write a little bit.

I bet staying at home is boring and you have nothing better to do other than sleeping and eating. I do that too. I've been sticking to my bed since forever hahaha. Locking down in my own room isn't a big problem for me because I'm someone who loves staying inside and spend my time with my laptop and phone. In simpler words, I'm in my actual habitat hahaha.

However, I believe this is the most proper and good time for each of us to improve ourselves. We can actually improve ourselves in a lot of areas. I personally trying to lose weight but jokes on me cause I keep end up on the bed watching anime.

Instead of doing nothing and feel bored, what you can do is do something you always want to do but you can't because of time restrictions. For example, you wanted to learn your second or third languages but you can't because you are busy. Now is the most appropriate time to do so, you have ample of time to waste and you can find a way to do so.

If you are still clueless about what you can do, here are a few things that I can suggest for you.

1. Learn a new language or improve your current language
2. Explore your cooking abilities
3. Baking
4. Learn how to play a musical instrument
5. Write poems
6. Improve your makeup skills
7. Indoor workout
8. Self-care (Meditation, beauty care)
9. Decorate your personal space
10. Learn how to draw
11. Practice singing
12. Learn how to dance
13. Do art

This is only applicable if you want to do something productive and fun during this MCO. If you are lazy and you are good at being lazy, not feeling boring. Then you are good! 

You can do a lot of things by staying at home. So please stay at home and let's flatten the curve. We still have a life to go back to and we need to stop COVID-19 as soon as possible. We are fighting this together! 

What are your favorite things to do while staying at home? Share it with me. See you in next post~ 

Life update.

Assalamualaikum and hi~ I'm back after a year. I've been so busy with my college and I've been so busy. Now I'm here in my bedroom locking my self for COVID-19. It's been a few weeks already but I don't really feel like blogging back.

edited image cr. to the owner from Pinterest.

Not really sure if anyone would read this but... How are you guys doing? Hope everything is fine. Lately, I've been into anime a lot so, I have no time to update my blog hahaha. I'm trying to cope up with my life. I stop writing for ZALORA for awhile because the payment has been stopped and I was busy even I have lot of time now I don't really feel motivated. Because I kind of stop doing beauty stuff and lifestyle. So I don't really have a lot of ideas to write to them. All these excuses hahaha. Again I drifted away from my dreams. I start losing hopes again. It is not because of the payment things, it's just... I don't know.

 I really don't know what to say on this post but I just want to greet my dear readers and friends who supported me all these times. Since the MCO is extending you guys can expect new post from me soon. See you in the next post!