Hi guys, It seems like i cannot find and good topic to share with you. I'm thinking to do songs, drama review again but i don't feel like doing it again soon i don't know why.. But for now i would like to share my random thought about life.
I have been in bad days i have been a good days.. i wonder what really make my good day good and what make my bad day bad. i just don't understand but i can feel it. Does this make sense? okay whatever.. i feel like life is going too fast, it's already October. what have i done past 10 month? i don't know either. When life going to fast i just feel like i wanna pause for awhile and take a breath a deep breath. life is so harsh. But it is reality you need to face it despite how much you actually hate it.
When life isn't going my way i feel my life has ruin.. it makes me sad and depress. But i realize how there will always someone to be by your side and listen to you, support you. it just myself.. it's me who don't want to speak up, it's me who don't want to accept the reality. it's me who wish everything is a fantasy. It is so hard to be someone who is outside of the box, someone who is unique, someone who has great achievement. I always want to be normal but nowadays.. everyone is racing to be number one.. too many smart people in the world. what special about being smart anymore?
I'm just someone who have a lot of love to give but why do i receive too little? i feel like no one is actually appreciating me. I try my best to do everything but none has worked. i'm tired.
I think this is it that i want to share.. you guys probably won't even bother to read this but i don't care haha. i'm sorry guys i feel like my life principle can't be use anymore so sorry there's lots of negativity on this blog at the moment. i will comeback as happy-go-lucky sarah again maybe.. maybe one day.. i don't know.. so see ya around.
Hey guyss~ i would like to share my experience going to my first ever kpop concert.. it has been few weeks already.. i make a vlog on my yt channel.. if you haven't watch it yet.. go watch NOW!!
In my video i can't really talk a lot.. so here i will rant and share everything that i went through on that day.. I'm having Post Concert Depression (PCD) real bad.
The concert was held at MIECC hall beside The Mines mall. We arrived there probably at 1 p.m. I was mind blown when some of carats were there since 9 a.m like.. i'm amazed bruh. After arrived i went for freebies hunting.. i don't get a lots of freebies because i was kinda "late". There is so few of Lee Chan's freebies i'm upsettt. i got one Lee Chan's photocard... i'm sed.
So, after freebies hunting at The Mines mall me and my friend went back to the hall area and just walking through the stall that sold lots of seventeen merchandise. I didn't buy any because i was hella broke... i have another story of being broke af.. so not gonna tell you guys here.. so i just cried in my heart bcs i want carat bong and other merch.. my broke purse can't relate with other carat.
After i died a lil after can't bring those merch i just sat on the stairs waiting to be called in. They said at 4 p.m CAT3 zone (which is my zone and it's freaking far from stage) but the organizer failed us.. carat is mad and sad.. even CAT2 hasn't entered yet.. until.. idk 5.30 p.m or something than only they allowed us to enter. While waiting to enter the hall, i was interviewed by hurr.tv hehe you guys can check it out.. wait let me put the video here
I did well right? haha i was the girl in blue shirt, pink shawl and a cap on stairs..
Now, the most amazing part. When they come out on the stage with intro and they sing Highlight, i cried.. everyone was screaming their lungs out, i was just froze there and cried.. it was so unreal even my seat is freakin far from stage i still can see them! Lee chan a.k.a Dino is sooo cute his voice is cute like it was so unreal hahaha everything about him is cute.. On their first ment, Hoshi called himself a princess.. i can't he is just too silly.. he was so hyper an he is so caring. Hoshi kept on mentioning carats on the back seats (which is my zone) until their last ment.
Dino talked a lot. In most of their variety show Lee Chan didn't really have lots of screen time and he seem kinda quiet type of guy but it was total opposite on the day. He just talk non stop, he talk after each members talk. I JUST FELL IN LOVE WITH HIM MORE! Dino and seungkwan having rap battle, dance battle and dino did win i mean well my boii you did well hahaha. it was so fun, they are so funny and playful. I fall in love with each of them more and more!
They have units performance. I was speechless on hiphop unit's performances.. it was amazing i have no words to describe! Next, vocal unit.. i kinda save my energy while they are performing because their voice was real and amazing and and wonderful, it's ballad anyways so i really save my energy for performance unit. Performance unit has been my fav all of the time, when they come out on stage they act cute and i died again! LEE CHAN JUST STAB MY HEART! I really wish i have that video. I am a huuugggeee fan of performance team so i scream my lungs out since the songs they perform are my top fav song from performance team.
Other performance are fun and exciting as well.. until their encore stage. Before their encore stage we are suppose to sing "campfire" song since it is our fan project but it was a failed bcs lots of carats were not informed.. but on their last ment each of carat rise up our banner/slogan and their reaction on the slogan were so warm and touching. They said they will comeback and the slogan make them want to comeback more! It was wonderful i can't describe the feeling
The slogan that i said before.
Fast Track Event is the organizer of Ideal Cut in KL and Singapore, Their security is strict as hweeellll. They are on each angle of the hall haha.. Some of us manage to record.. i don't know how they did.
I have this thought before.. "Why waste money go to concert and sit at the back when you can watch on youtube and see them up close" i got the answer now.. Not everything about svt is showed on youtube hiphop unit even perform an unreleased song. you cannot hear it anywhere else.. Overall, the concert is amazing i cried, i laugh, i smile, i scream haha.. so yea guys that is all for this long entry.. been awhile since i post a longggg entry.. so bye bye see ya in next post
Hey guys.. been awhile, it is soooo long since my last update. However, i'm back.. yes people sarah is back.
I'm not even sure if people will read my blog anymore..but still i just wanna share my hearts out. Blog has been my diaries for years. i try to be "professional blogger" but nah never happen i just come back with more stories of mine. /like who even interested in my life. right?
So, i think i've been in a worst period of my life ever. I was so unproductive and unmotivated.. I don't enjoy writings anymore.. whenever i want to start writing again i feel like it is a burden. I think i was so stressed out with my college life. I really hate my college life.. i know it is not a good thing to share but still... college is so.... heartbreaking and kind of ruining my life. um sorry for too much negativity.
I tried to do youtube videos... well i still upload on my channel... but now i realised that blog post are much more easier than youtube..but maybe i just toooo thirsty for attention that i abandoned my precious blog.. because people don't really read this type of blog anymore. Youtube need a lot of energy, time, money and idk everything.. i feel more comfortable writing blogs it is just so warm and it feels like home hahaha.
If you guys don't know yet.. i've been offer to be contributer on ZALORA THREAD yea i wrote like 2 articles there then i kind of pause because i was so... idk i feel like i was in the dark past few months.. but now zalora thread offer me again as existing writer to write more and get paid... i was stoned atm bcs i was unprofessional af for not writing and yet they gave me another chance... and i decide i will work hard.. if college is doing me dirty, writings will shine on me. just sayin.. accounting is hard. i died a lil..
Now I'm gonna use this opportunity wisely, i will establish my name as freelance writer on zalora thread.. Insyallah.. and maybe soon enough i will be writing for more magazines... This is it... some boring stuff to share with you all... till see you again on another post.
