009. I can't have you

I love the idea of having you
Having you by my side
Dancing in the rain, when it's hurt
Hugging for warmth and comfort
Shower me with kisses for the love 
Just, you staying by my side

The idea of my love for you is so pure
I want to grow old together
Loving your flaws and your perfections
Throwing away the mask that conceals our face
Be our version of each other

Knowing you makes me want to be the best version of me
I want to be better so I can make you content
I want to heal the pain that is hurting you
I want to linger by your side when no one is around
I want to embrace you with care and affection  

Though,
Something is hanging and swaying 
I sense that it is not the kind of love you are looking for
There are unspeakable things that make me feel uncertain
My gut keeps telling me I can't keep you

Maybe, I can't have you. 

- SarahIsyah