006. Emotions

There are many times,
we struggle from understanding

our own emotions.

My therapist said, 

acknowledge your feelings

feels your feeling

don't deny them.

I tried embracing them but 

what is this emotion?

am I sad? am I disappointed?

or am I just so confused?

The heart is home to emotions,

you feel it through your chest

it beats to the rhythm of your emotion

In my head, I know too well

what is going to happen

but my heart ignores it

Somedays, I just wish I could kill it

stabs it until bleed and let it die

so I could keep living without feelings.

Please, 

stop getting attached to

another heart that wasn't for me

stop feeling so special

when they were just showing kindness

stop being so happy

when you know it's meaningless

stop being pathetic

to seek their attention 

I'm so tired...

- Sarah Isyah

*PSA: Just to clarify the thing I don't have to but my past few writings aren't meant for a lover but just people in general. thanks. still single.